Between Effort and Ease

Somewhere between extreme effort and ease, this is where I would like to live my life. I won't say that it was easy to loose 70 lbs but I don't remember it being as hard as things have been lately. I haven't yet reached my goal weight, far from it in fact. Lately it seem that it is taking more and more effort not to rocket back up. I have been in a 5lb swing for the past 3 years. Lately I have been at the upper end of this and beyond. It is getting very frustrating to see the number on the scale go up or stay the same. I haven't really changed my diet much in the past three years, the only notable exception has been more fresh local produce and more vegetarian leaning meals. Cutting back on coffee has been the other major change. I love coffee. A couple of months ago I was sick and instead of making coffee in the morning I had tea. When I started feeling better I started drinking coffee again and noticed that getting to sleep was more difficult at night.

Watching shows like The Biggest Looser inspires me, the problem is that I don't always have someone to push me to do the workouts in a way that pushes me out of my comfort zone. I have thought about joining a gym but I'm not really a gym person. I'm sure that I would benefit from a gym and a trainer but I can't really afford that right now in my life. I do notice that when given a challenge I am willing to rise to the challenge. Just the other week in Stephanie's yoga class she had us doing push-ups, she started by saying that we only had to do 6 but if we could do 10 then go ahead. So I did 10. I also notice that when I go for a walk with Chad that he always walks behind me, if he walked next to me or in front of me I would probably walk faster.

Perhaps I am craving a challenge? The Manju Jois wor

kshop was a challenge and I felt that I stepped up to that challenge. I also felt so sore and stiff for about a week after words but it was well worth it.

Contemplating this post has been a challenge I have let it sit for about two weeks thinking that I just needed a picture to add and then it would be done but I think there is more to it. I just haven't figured it out yet. I still get up in the morning and stumble out of bed hoping that today will be the day that I find an answer to one of the many questions that I have.